(Of course there is always the question of do I actually need this thing I am praying for or is it just something I would really, really like? If the latter, God's answer could be 'no' or 'not now.')
So on the day in question, God by his grace decided to jolly well show me what he could do. I'm still not sure whether the thing I was praying about (interestingly not one of the things concerned with my previous post where I desperately need him to come through) was a need or a wish.
I had taken some time to be alone with him in a beautiful place just to concentrate on him, trying to learn to abide in him and trust him with everything and he honoured this in a beautiful way. He showed me that he knew exactly what was going on in my mind, my needs and desires, even before I got there (he made arrangements accordingly). He knew the thoughts that I never utter to a soul, and he cared about them. He knows me better than I know myself, he hems me in behind and before. He knows me perfectly and completely. I can honestly say that it is the best feeling ever just to have a glimpse, a shadow, of truly knowing this, and I cannot wait for the day when I know it fully.
You can take it from me (Please don't though. Pray for him to show you instead - from my experience the only way we really believe things is if they happen to us) that he is so easily capable of providing in any and every area of our lives that I'm baffled he has the patience with us while we are doubting it!
To come back to my question about whether it was a need or a wish, I think the way I was praying about concerned a wish, but through the experience God actually showed me that I do have a need, but it is for something more even than what I was praying for, and the need is what he will provide for. The wish; maybe.
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